Giving Up

Ever thought of giving up on something that you love so much and dearly?



Something so precious...
Something that is worth to treasure for a life time.......
Something that changed your life for only once...............
Something that taught you so much.....................................
Something that you doubt that you wil ever find it again...
Something that is rarely appear in your daily life.................

It could be SOMEThiNg Or a SOMEONe?

Once, you treasure that Something or Someone..
You would never thought of letting go because you just wan to treasure that moment when you still have it..


But everything change when the time comes..
Or haven even comes..
And you already feel like giving up...
Exhausted,
Tired..
Confuse..

You once used to say that you'll treasure this ThinG..
And im sure you always will be..
But what now when you feel like leaving and not ever wan to turn back?
Your back was facing with the memories...
Turning away from the memories..
Walking away..

GivinG Up would be the word..

Moving on to a new area and leave you behind with all the things that were left with you?
I'm sure you're still happy with people that care bout you more around you for a lil while more..


You're going soon, so what's the point of me staying?
Waiting for every single month to pass..

Every month

Every week
Every hour
Every minute
Every second......

I've grown up for 18years here but now i feel like leaving it before we make more unforgettable memories..
It all will turn out into heart breaks when it's time for you to leave..
When you're gone..
Tears cascade..
You will ended up seeing a zombie in front of you...
So why wanna see?

Yes,
im afraid
I dun wan this and i couldnt stand this

Everytime you hesitate beside me..
Inches away from me...
I panic..
I swear I did try my best to make things perfect...
But that's the BEST i could do..
Im sorry if it wasnt perfect enough for you..
Im sorry im not as smart as you.......
Im sorry that if i ever let you down...


And i know you're right to feel frustrated and angry at that time..
You just wan the best for the whole play.... =)


I left immediately when everyone haven get the chance to see me around..
I sneak away as fast as possible...
Thoughts cover me every single night after that day...
Blaming myself, saying that i should do harder and better to prove to you..
But is it too late?


God's words comfort me while i was reading thru..

"But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, an all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry bout tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry bout itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.."
Matthew6.33

There's only one thing on my mind...

I couldnt bare to face you anymore..
I wanna go...
Far Away......
Give up..........

And that's the last thing i want to do..

~GraceKoh~

thank God you wont be viewing or neither seeing this =)