Looking at him missing her every single second reminded me of so many stuff. When you love someone, you're willing to give everything, just about
EVERYTHING to that person. I was once like that, but i guess now, i'm not anymore.
A person who was once hurt in love, will never give out as much as they used before.
Looking at him, waiting patiently for her approach and appear every single second, minute, hour, day. My heart aches but felt proud that at least there's a guy who finally showed me that they're like me too. And that they're not like some other jerk who played around and will never appreciates a girl. So at least i'm not one of those stupid ones to wait like that.
Wanting her so desperately to be by his side, but there's nothing he can do.
Wait, was the only thing that he can do. Often enough, he wanted to be by her side. Protect her and give her the comfort that he could to make her feel so much better when she's out there in the world, seeing new things and feels lonely during those nights.
If you were to be given a task, the person who you're waiting for, doesn't seems to see or realize every sacrifice that you've made, what would you do? You tried telling them but they tend to forget about what you said later on. Was that even your fault? Or was that just meant to be?
Often felt that you need a break from this whole shit, but still afraid of losing the one that you love so dearly to slip away during this "break".
What if this relationship can't make it?
Are you going to blame the world just because of what she had done to you?
就因她，你宁愿伤害那些无辜的女孩子?
But does these girls deserves to be hurt? Yes, i know that you're once hurt,
BADLY. But that doesn't mean all girls are the same. Some girls are not
HER. They don't deserve to be hurt when they're giving in in a relationship just like how you're giving in right now. To be honest, I don't really know what to say. But what i heard, it hurts me and it disappointed me. Tell me i'm not understandable but i'm sure i went through that before and
time, is all the answers.
I don't know what stage are we at now but i was very very grateful that you shared with me about this the other night. Because this increased my self esteem. Bet you don't know ;)
I felt that,
"Hey! At least i'm trustworthy for you." You wouldn't know how joyful i am. Finally we sat down together and talk. I was very happy to be your listener and i'm more willing too. But what i regret later on, I was reminded that maybe sometimes, when you felt like pointing out your views, you should say it out.
I often know that what i wanted to say but as not to offend you, i rather not tell you that you're doing something very very wrong. I wanted to tell you to stop, I wanted to shake you and call you to wake up, i wanted to shout at you but i was afraid that you would leave me and never tell things to me ever again because i'm such a nag.
Later on, i would blame myself and scold, shout at myself for being such an idiot for not saying my views out. I know you have your thoughts, but not everytime, it's correct. You need some guidance. I would want to guide you, but i just dunno how. I even suck being myself.
I know you would dislike and push me aside if i ever say anything more. So i stayed quiet because it's the most safe way to maintain the whole friendship and trust thing. But after realizing, i was wrong. So wrong. It was my mistake.
Because, only
a true friend who cares about you, dares to take out the guts to say the
truth, and we all know
the truth often hurts. And worst comes to worst, a true friend is doing this with a risk, which is
losing this friendship. They're telling you just because they've seen you fallen out of the path and they're trying to lead you back into the right path by telling us the truth. But sometimes, we are blinded by our thoughts because we choose to numb ourselves and not wanting the numb to be over, because we don't want to face reality. Our mind was fully blocked til we can't see the view. Conflict occur and there goes the friendship.
So what if i finally take out the guts to tell you that you're wrong, at some ways. Would you hate me, dislike me, distance yourself away from me? I don't know but i hope you'll understand someday.
Bet you're enjoying life right now =)
Keep up the good word!!!
And good luck finding
"yourself"
I'm just another passer by in your life =)
I hope you know who you are and i've kept my promise by writing this for
YOU
Just to state to you again, Not all girls are the same. Just a few. You haven see the clearer view from outside of that box. So much more to learn.
Cheers~!!!
~GraceKoh~
