Bummed out

Yawn..I'm freaking tired but i couldn't sleep now because if i sleep now, im never gonna be able to sleep tonight~!!! =(



Sigh.. how good is it if im like some people who can just sleep during the afternoons and can still sleep at night. Used to be that kinda person, but sadly im not one now anymore -.-



Not knowing What To Do.. might as well just choose to update my blog =)

Anyway, went Nilai Inti College with piggie, daniel and ian today. Man, it was a long day. Thank God we drove over if not we'll be stuck there till God knows when. We were hanging around there, not til one hour, we took off. lol.. Some 40mins ride turn out to be less-than-an-hour-of-visitting. (forgive me, i dunno how to put it in sentence) -.- lol..

set to go

look at both of them man.. solid

Basically, it's just boring and there's nothing much we can to do. At last, we decided to hit somewhere else. Darn la.. disappointed man. No chicks around nilai inti -.- this is what dan and ian said..

on the way back to the car
tooken by Iantooken by Grace
~yeap.. we're the two stalker at the back of those two xD~

Drove to sunway later on and 3 of us accompany piggie on her shopping spree. LoL.. we just followed and watched her trying on some dresses, shoes, belts and etc. Seriously, now i finally know how A GIRL really shops. It's insane man! But it's worth the ride and all =)


You know.. when you get to look at hot babes trying on some breath-taking dresses or clothes, why wouldn't you feel worth it? LoL.. no? ;)


I just hope Ian and daniel wont go all work out tonight after looking at how breath taking piggie was today by trying on those gorgeous dresses etc.. lol..


College life is not that bad after all.. =)
At least it's better compare to secondary =)

Just cherish whatever there is that we have right now, because we'll never know how things will turn out later on =)

Lastly, just some pictures to share bout during the passed few weeks..

This is the life when you're happy hanging out with your friends
=D


i think this pic was taken by nuga if im not mistaken
ian was stuck in the middle and daniel and i are squeezing him to death. lol..
we(dan and i) were both "fighting".. in some ways..LoL

yup.. you can see how sufferring his face was LoL..
finally ian moved away and his arm is gone case la
im just... exhausted. lol..one of the days when we're having our dinner at KFC b4 hitting nuga's place to study..Checking out some chicks thru facebook at Nuga's place..
randomness..Chilling in the college
Dunno what are we looking at tho -.-''lol.. emo-ing..
Girls..
they just couldn't resist to camwhore
Have to just tag along -.-yeah, i know.. -.- im in a mess..
i was sweating man. the weather is just so daRn hot~!!! ><

That's all for today..

Great days ahead people..

Cheers~!!!




~GraceKoh~

Return Trip

Ever in your life, you KNOW that you're always
Running..
Hiding...
Skipping...
Bumming...


Always hoping things will get better and better as each day passes.
But it only got worse when you're all alone and bumming into stuff which are unexpected.

Whatever age we are, we can all think of a time when we wanted to be sure of something.

A time when things are really true to us.
A time when things can last...
A time with no doubts but trust...
A time to settle down and be true..
A time when things will never end...
A time when there's no more playing and hurting each other again..

Life is like a highway...

You can speed as fast as you wan when you felt frustrated...
Or even stop by to see some beautiful scenery along the way...
You can see many different kinds of scenery as you drive down the long highway..

Some may be pleasant and beautiful,
Some may be heartbreaking and anger.

Certain people knows what road they're taking..
But most, they just keep on driving down the road with no direction.


It's true..
Somehow things will come to an end, so does the highway.



Ever since the beginning, we knew things were getting awkward..
Til i finally left..
When i got back...
Things got worst and soon, it all became silence, like an ocean without living creatures in it.

Dead,
Lifeless,
No movement,
and all things were hid underneath the surface.

In a blink of an eye...
A year passed by...


I left again, and this time, no turning back.
I drive down the highway with a fragile heart..
Speeding...
Not wanting to turn back and have a second look at it....
Even tho deep down, i know this is the place where i belong..
I knew..

SOMEDAY..
SOMETIME..
SOMEHOW..

I would have to take a U-turn from this highway that im driving down now...
Until you said you regret......


My mind is spinning.
You're leaving soon...
I knew that all along...

Time is running out...

What am i suppose to do?
Turn back and forget everything and face the awkwardness again?
I couldn't even remember how you even look like anymore~!!!
Just a blurry image that i couldn't even remember even tho i tried to flashback my memories..



Gradually, i began to lost myself on the highway..
Feeling all alone and locking myself up.
Thought that i could find new friendships to build up and grow together to cover up that pain..


Until, I bummed into a friend.
I thought i was doing it right?
I thought..

"hey..hmmm..maybe this friendship will work out? why not give it a try?"

And there it goes...
But.... i was wrong.
I didnt know what else to do..
Was it all a lie?
It was obvious enough that the answer is "YES"
I got knock down in the end, hard.
Im just trying to be a good friend and be there for them when they really need someone.
And all i ever get...
Is just a shoots and bullshit crap..
Not even a single "thank you" LoL..


Not to deny that i was broken....


Until one day, i read a versus in the bible.. it said:

"Remember, I will be with you and protect you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done all that I have promised you."
~Genesis28:15~

Recalling another versus when Jesus was hung on the cross.. He used to say :

"Forgive them Father, for they do not know what they're doing"

It really warm me up.. more or less.
On the second day, a sister in Christ told me that it's all bout humbling yourself down.
People makes mistakes..
Things happen and that's why we learn from there and grow instead of blaming others.



So, finally.
Things were getting back to path.
I made my final decision by taking a U-turn from that highway..
Im coming back to a place where i knew what's best for me..
Im not gonna drive down on highways that i know that in the end i'll find nothing but loneliness..


Few days later, i found another few friends.
I doubt..
I struggle...
Not knowing how will it turn out again?
But.. why not give it another try?
Life is always bout learning?
Wasn't it? =)

Sometimes, we dun know what we have until when it is gone..

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So dear readers, (if you're ever reading this til the last that is)


Here's a few questions for you and me to think bout.. =)


Do we ever live for the moment and have eyes only for what is attracting us?
Do we ever take advantage of others?
What scale do we use to make our decisions?
Because sometimes, out of our realization, we hurt others in some ways when we did those decisions.
Sometimes, we even hurt them and we blame them at the same time.



How focus are you on some pain from the past?
The pain may not only still pierce your heart but also lead you to wonder if you'll ever see a day without it. No?
Im sure more or less.. some of us been through it and the taste wasnt pleasant =)


So.. if you wan how others to treat you, you should start by treating others too =)


Think bout it, alright? =)



Great days ahead ppl..

Cheers~!!!





~GraceKoh~

Short update

Hmmm.. dun really have much to update tho.


Accounting test is coming up next tuesday and final is just two weeks ahead and im enjoying myself still. Die la >< Been over to Nuga's place very often these few days.


Yesterday, Daniel just saw some babes there when we're on our way in to the condo. But oh well.. his too scared and shy to stay and watch them swim. Awww~ LoL.. but.. they look so tall and old for him -.- hmmm.. maybe he just love older chicks? xD hahaha..


Been skipping classes lately. No motivation. Yes ><>< but i really couldnt stop myself from yawning, espec for Mr Andrew's class. Sometimes, even the way when he look at you, gosh.. *shivers*


Yawn.. Just a short update and now..... im off...

this is what we do when we're bored

yeap.. she just got out from tanjung rambutan

nuga and wai kei
shir gie and nugai just love playing with her hair =plook at her, trying to show off but at the main time look so hot xD
*that sounded so wrong ><*
but im right, right? =D



Back at Nuga's condo
nothing else better to do -.-oh yeah, she's pulling me faceNO, we're NOT making out~!!! -.-

Great days ahead ppl.. =)




~GraceKoh~




*Daniel:: if you're reading this, NEVER EVER EVER use that stupid "PeTer" guy of yours -.- thank God i still can sleep at night, if not im so gonna stomp over to your house and make you not to sleep for the whole night -.- And i'll DO IT~!!!

The Climb

I can almost see it,
That dream I'm dreaming.
But there's a voice inside my head says
"You'll never reach it"


Every step I'm taking..
Every move I make feels lost with no direction
My faith is shaking


But I've gotta keep trying,
Gotta keep my head held high.


There's always gonna be another mountain,
I'm always gonna wanna make it move,
Always gonna be an up-hill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,


Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side...
It's The Climb.


The struggles I'm facing..
The chances I'm taking.....
Sometimes might knock me down but
No~!!! I'm not breaking.



I may not know it,
but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most,
yeah...
Just gotta keep going..



And i gotta be strong...
Just keep pushing on.....



Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith


It's all about the climb
Keep your faith...



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This song really inspire me in someways.
Every night when i found it hard to sleep, im always tuning in to this song. lol..
It has become my lullaby..


Maybe.. miley cyrus's voice wasn't that nice (sorry to her fans) but seriously la.. sometimes her voice really gives me the shivers =/ lol..


Anyway.. just a short update. Something to talk bout =) no harm right?



And something is seriously wrong with me man. I think im getting insomnia and my appetite is totally off the hook. I can lie on my bed for 2hours then only finally dozed off, sometimes even more than that. I skipped breakfast, lunch. sometimes even dinner and not feel hungry at all. Used to be a BIG EATER but somehow everything changed starting from last wed -.-''



Gosh.. what's happening man?


ahh.. i just hope i'll get over with it soon. I need some desperate sleep and a good appetite like b4 man. ><


Yawn.. tired. Just got back from station one bout one hour ago after our Malaysian Studies class. Hanging out with daniel, nuga and piggie =) and daniel dropped me off. Gosh.. puke on the way for like how many times weh. crazyness.. thank God didnt puke in Daniel's car la if not.. man. Wouldn't wanna imagine wat happen next. probably have to help him clean his car and not allow to sit his car in the future or i have to walk back home by myself. lol.. xD



Wookie~ im'a buzz now.


Gotta get going to go down klang for church =)


Great days ahead ppl..


Cheers~!!! =)





~GraceKoh~

Love is life.
And if you miss love, you miss life =)

The weekdays

I'll let my post start off with a picture of a monster, Daniel. lol.. =p
*hope he'll not kill me for this even tho i doubt he'll ever read this xD*

Things are getting better and better in college =)



I almost died from boredomness for the passed one month. lol.. but i'll take that back now =)



Obviously, things do happened along the way. Just that.. well.. all we could do is just forget and forgive. That's all it takes to heal that fragile part of your body =) maybe that person might not felt it.. ahh.. but as long they're happy, things are cool. Just a lil time out will do the rest of the work.

I've been out almost everyday ever since wed night. LoL. Just hanging with a bunch of jokers. lol.. i've made them gone crazy and wild and everyone's crazy laughing and all. And i hope it's a start of something new =) but honestly, i haven been laughing and feeling so good and joyful ever since form3. lol.. it really made my day =)

Nuga, teaching daniel. fuiyo.. she's staring. lol..

It's a wednesday night. Daniel and I went over to Nuga's condo to study math. Since nuga is one of the good-in-explaning type of person and i suck at it -.- so why not? And this is when nuga and daniel first met and talk =)


We have so so much fun and everyone's always laughing. LoL.. but of course, we do our work at the same time too la. Not forgetting, me and piggie are always interrupting when nuga's teaching daniel. lol..



Later tat night, Daniel sent piggie home and he dropped me too. All thanks to him. Why? Because of him telling me that we might have dinner first only head over to Nuga's condo, ended up we were there at 7 and by the time we left and send piggie home, it's nearly 11. How to eat dinner la? Didnt eat in the end lo and the next day i hit the toilet for like 3times due to terrible tummy ache -.-'



On thursday night, wow. After 2killing papers, at night go eat steamboat as a celebration with another gang~!!! Damn full weh.. We are allowed to eat as much as we like and it only cost for RM22 per head. Had ice cream as a closing too =) Was suppose to go for pool with them, but haih.. better go home. Parents wouldnt be happy if i come home at 11.30pm, or later =(


On friday, nuga, piggie and shir gie came over to my house. They're doing their malaysian study thingy while I left them at my house and went out with daniel to accompany him to eat his so-called-lunch. I cant even believe tat he had a bubble tea during lunch time with a fren of his and not eat anything later that.. and tahan til 6pm only go makan -.-


And lastly, on saturday. Just an outing with the girls. Daniel was suppose to come~!!! im gonna whack and smack that fella, hard when he comes to pick me up on monday -.- lol..


Yawn...That's all for today.. man.. like grandma story -.-
sorry. ntg nice and special. lol..


Great days ahead ppl..

i'll let the pictures do the talking =)piggie and nuga =)

face problem. lol..
me of course.
nuga's perfectly beautiful ;)

Toodles~ =)



~GraceKoh~